My late husband David's wedding band of 18-kt. gold and platinum: the real value is the sentiment. A London jeweler inscribed an excerpt of an Alice Walker poem: "...The face I turn to you, no one else on earth has ever seen."
Today is our wedding anniversary and I honour my love; my partner; my champion. David was the first man in my adult life that I could count on to be supportive, no matter what. His belief in me was unfailing. With him, I allowed myself to feel safe. It was a revelation not having to be responsible for every single thing; to know that I had a reliable partner, in every sense of the word.
These last few weeks I have been battling the blues. Some days are better than others. Mostly I am coping, but there are moments of overwhelming sadness and tears. A friend reminded me this week that the greater the love, the greater the grief.
I miss David every day. But I try to focus on the happy times we shared, as a strong foundation for the way forward. I am eternally grateful for the time we had together. David's presence in my life changed everything. My brave and brilliant husband - with his ever-present sense of humour - showed me that truly, love bears all things. And love never dies.
Amongst all the big, unanswerable questions of life and death and God; amidst the tears and fears and sorrow...
...despite the ever-present grief, once again I must learn to spread my wings.
A new chapter and a new journey await. So I gather my courage - along with my treasured memories - and slowly venture forth...
No matter the challenges or obstacles, I must navigate this new, bewildering territory. Perhaps I'll have to create my own map. It seems the trick is to keep moving forward.
Truly I am blessed to have a wonderful family and so many good friends. Thank you for your thoughtful and comforting messages, cards, phone calls, flowers and visits. Thank you for keeping the light burning through even the darkest days and nights. Merci bien!